"That is the only way thou shouldst be loved." His fingers curl in the back of Claudius' cardigan, layered over his jacket and shirt, those many layers of armor that Claudius wears to protect himself. He feels that dizzying ache of fury, the way he did when Gertrude told him what Claudius is saying again now. He wants to hurt Sagramore.
Claudius has talked about Sagramore -- how he admires him and his easy way with people, how handsome he is on horseback, how warm and gentle and constant he is, how good his curls are to touch -- and Sagramore has failed to cherish what it means to be talked about by Claudius. He's failed to treat Claudius' love as the good green thing it is, growing up the trellises of the people Claudius chooses.
Galahad knows perfectly well what Claudius is talking about. Sagramore is lovers with Luo Binghe. It's one thing for Shen Yuan to choose Luo Binghe; it's another thing for Sagramore, who Claudius loves, to make that choice.
He draws his breath in quietly and lets it out, so that the only shake in his hands is their usual tremor, the one that's been with him since childhood, and which Claudius is used to. He remembers Claudius saying his brother threw his books in the fire once in anger, not because he was angry with Claudius, but just because he wanted to ruin something with his anger; Galahad's own anger can be private, held inside him, so there's no risk of it frightening Claudius with the promise of destruction.
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Date: 2024-04-01 09:45 pm (UTC)Claudius has talked about Sagramore -- how he admires him and his easy way with people, how handsome he is on horseback, how warm and gentle and constant he is, how good his curls are to touch -- and Sagramore has failed to cherish what it means to be talked about by Claudius. He's failed to treat Claudius' love as the good green thing it is, growing up the trellises of the people Claudius chooses.
Galahad knows perfectly well what Claudius is talking about. Sagramore is lovers with Luo Binghe. It's one thing for Shen Yuan to choose Luo Binghe; it's another thing for Sagramore, who Claudius loves, to make that choice.
He draws his breath in quietly and lets it out, so that the only shake in his hands is their usual tremor, the one that's been with him since childhood, and which Claudius is used to. He remembers Claudius saying his brother threw his books in the fire once in anger, not because he was angry with Claudius, but just because he wanted to ruin something with his anger; Galahad's own anger can be private, held inside him, so there's no risk of it frightening Claudius with the promise of destruction.